Today as I’m sitting here, struggling with choosing a journal to start writing in, I thought I might share a little of my journal history with you.
Why I Started Journaling
Way back in the past, as 1999 turned into 2000 I made a resolution to keep a journal. At the time I was reading a book in which a pregnant character was keeping a journal for her baby about the world. It sounded cool to me, so I started journaling with hopes of it being a good chronicle.
I was young, and my journals did not go the way I had daydreamed them. My first journal was, instead, a book of what I did that day, who I was crushing on and rant after rant after rant.
I kept these journals for years in cheap dollar store notebooks. Not spiral bound, but the small hardback journals. I filled up book after book after book.
Then my oldest brought bought me a journal because he knew it was a thing I did and I thought it was the most amazing book I’d ever had. I loved it.
Fast forward to adulthood, my husband started reading my journals and attacking me for what was written (ranting remember) and for years my journaling became sporadic to non-existent. Instead of personal journals I kept a blog. Sporadically I would do gluebooks or art journal pages.
This past year I started keeping a Bullet Journal, which has made me want to keep a personal journal again, but I keep hesitating to start.
I have decided to resolve to journal keeping again.
Choosing a Journal For Now
Over the years, despite not journaling, I still managed to collect a hoard of blank books.
I have this journal by Peter Pauper Press in my hoard. I have always found it stunningly beautiful. My mother in law gifted it to me many Christmases ago. I’ve written one page in it, meaning to start a list of 101 things that make me smile. I stopped at 2 entries with 16 things.
Part of me wants to wait until After Christmas to start journaling again. I’ve asked for several journals and want to wait to see if I get any of them.
Actually, another part of me wants to wait until the 1st, just like I started my 2000 journaling on the 1st of a new year, as midnight struck.
But another part of me is worried that if I wait for that long, another 3 weeks, that I’ll lose this desire I have right now to journal.